healing hearts

hi my name is patricia and i just feltlike sharing some things this evening. i feel like i need to share somethingfrom my heart to yours and i hope it does something for you. i hope it lifts your spirits, lifts your head up high. i always have a burden for people who have been hurt for so many years... for people who have been abused or mistreated or disrespected or used or played. there are so many people out there who have been molested who have been raped,

who have been treated as second-classcitizens. those in the marketplace... in the business place in school, and in the church; and ireally apologize to you for so many things you've had to go through; because it's very painful. some peoplethink very lightly of it, because they're not the ones being hurt. they might be the onesinflicting the pain; so they think is funny. they think it's cute. ...or they think entertaining, watching you curl up and die inside.

i just wanna say please don't give up on yourselves. don't give up on life; because there is a life to conquer. and you can do it all by yourself. you don't need other people's approval. you don't other people's love, to do it. you have to love yourself. you have to approve of yourself. i just ask you take the time ...if you're dealing with a lot of hurt, if you're dealing with a lot of anger...

and a lot of resentment, go to god and ask him to heal that. he's the only one who can. he's the only one who can help you forgive. ask me how i know. im not talking from something i read. i'm not talking from something i heard from the pulpit i found out for myself... that all those hurts i dealt with, as a child, i don't carry with me now. i didn't have to carry with me;

...because i knew i needed help; and i asked for help... and got it. i can look at some of the same people right now, who i hated, for years... who i resented... the ones where at first sight, the anger would just well up inside of me. i would just wish they were dead. i don't feel that way any more. where did that go? i didn't throw it away. where did it go? i just want to let you know, it doesn't have to follow you to the grave.

those people no longer have to have any control over your life... ... any controlover your decision making. your life belongs to you; not them. don't let them have any more power; theydon't deserve it. forgive them, yes; ...not for them; for you; ...because your forgiveness allows you to be free. your forgiveness allows you to shake the pain...and get rid of the hurt. your forgiveness takes the sting out of those lousy memories;

and it also frees you up, to look ahead and see what's in store for you. there's a lot more to you, than you believe.; no matter what they said. no matter what they believed, no matter what their opinions have been of you, it doesn't matter. it doesn't matter...doesn't matter if your mother said it, if your father said it. it doesn't matter. what counts, is...what do you say? who do you say you are?

what beauty have you recognized from within? look deep. it's there. some of you won'thave to look far at all; because you are beautiful...no matter what they say, you are beautiful and i hope andpray, one day, you will be able to look, see, recognize and appreciate ...ultimately, accepting and loving yourself. thank you for taking the time to listento me. i'll be back.